MEET FRANCESCA
If someone had told me 10 years ago or even 3 years ago for that matter that I would be a medicine woman & shaman I would have told them that they were as mad as a box of frogs. (a favourite expression of mine from my birth country, England)
But that’s the funny thing about life, sometimes IT takes you to places you never thought you’d go.
Ever since I was little, my heart felt like it was broken. I came from a very unhappy home environment filled with rage, anger, and abuse all around me and the wealth and privilege I grew up with did nothing to soothe my pain. I never felt safe and all of the adults in my life were so, so unhappy. This heartache continued to grow as I got older but I never truly connected to its cause until much later in life and, prior to my realisation of where it came from, I lived what felt like a hollow shell. A version of myself that felt so empty, so empty and so desperately sad.
This ‘sacred ache’ as I would later name it, was what was guiding me through life and unsurprisingly it influenced every choice that I made in my life. Making decisions from a place of hurt, wounding, and fear led me down a life path that very much created the reality that I was living with inside. The relationships I cultivated were painful, my career was unfulfilling, I couldn’t quite get close enough for anyone to really know me, and I struggled with a lifetime of severe depression (oftentimes contemplating suicidal thoughts), isolation, and lack of self-worth. I spoke to countless therapists, took all sorts of pharmaceuticals but nothing truly helped fill the void I had had since my youth and in the process I started to follow the very lonely and addictive path of my mother but then destiny stepped in….
(I think it’s important to mention here that my mother died from a broken heart quite literally. She had pushed everyone out of her life including me her only daughter, was taking about 15 pharmaceutical pills at the time of her death, was obese and had had breast cancer twice a not too dissimilar a path from all of the women on my maternal side)
In 2021, I went to Mexico to escape the temporary madness that was taking over our country and I found Ayahuasca, or perhaps I should say that she found me. There is so much to say about what and how this ‘vine of the soul’ (psychedelic) transforms your life because, after all, when else do we get to check our egos at the door and experience ourselves as a soul only?! My connection to life and all that is was birthed and that was when my highest destiny really started to take shape.
It was after my first Shamanic Healing Energy session while attending Dr. Villoldo’s (world-renowned Shaman) Four Winds Light Body School, that everything started to shift. The ‘sacred ache’ started to go away and the hollowness started to dissipate. The penny started to drop and I could now see that I had been carrying ALL of my parents and ancestors pain and that my sense of self was based on this wounding. I could not disidentify from my painful past and this was making life feel unnecessarily painful. My sense of self was tied to pain and how can we live life to its potential when we are doing that? Well, we can’t. That is not what our Creator designed us for!
So there were more and more sessions to follow each session opening me up to more insight and the ability to let go of the pain energy stored in my body and soul and then life started to feel less hard. In fact, it started to feel as though I was becoming the writer of my own story instead of writing a similar story to my family and ancestors. And then something happened that I never thought would happen. I started to love myself and to feel worthy and THIS was the new foundation that I was now building my life upon. My health started to shift as I reversed my auto-immune disease, and my purpose in life opened up to me and all because I had started to let go of the limited version of myself. I realized that there had never been anything wrong with me; I just hadn’t opened up to the idea that I was a perfect expression of our creator! For the first time, I felt free. Free to be a version of me that I had always wanted to be but that had always been living under a veil of pain and limiting stories. By letting go of all of my past hurts and the stories wrapped around them, I was able to unleash the original divine blueprint within ME, the version of me that our Creator always wanted me to be. I had shifted from fate to destiny and this has made all of the difference.
This is what Shamanic Energy Medicine can do and I am living proof.
We DO have the power to shape our lives, health, and destiny and we can do so by realigning with our Divine Selves.
Loving you all.
Munay,
